I am a bad blogger!

This blog was supposed to track my pregnancy, but I am doing a crappy job keeping it updated. I haven't done my weekly post in almost 3 weeks now. Christmas Day I will be 16 weeks! It is so hard to believe I am already that far along. We have started telling more friends and we will be telling Jason's extended family tomorrow on Christmas Eve! I know they are going to be so excited. I have had a lot of people ask me when I found out. When I say October they act shocked. I don't think anyone expects you to keep a secret for that long. Really, I could wait even longer. It has been so awkward to tell people now.

I have been having a hard time thinking about my loss lately. I am so very happy to be pregnant again, but I miss the baby I lost. We would know if he or she was a boy or girl. The nursery would be almost done. It would be time for baby showers and only about 7 weeks till my due date. I should have a big pregnant belly now. I am sure it is just hormones and the holidays, but I have cried a lot the last few days.

It will be out of whack, but I want to go ahead and do an update post!

How far along? 15 weeks 5 days

Total weight gain: I am not sure. I was down 5 lbs at my appointment a few weeks ago, but we don't have scales at home.

Maternity clothes? I have been wearing maternity jeans for a few weeks now. Shirts are still fine, but my pants were getting way tight.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: Really crappy the last weeks or so. I toss and turn a lot.

Best moment this week: My friend told me I was starting to look pregnant from the side, lol. That made me happy!

Miss Anything? No, not at all.

Movement: It is still a little too early, but I am should be feeling something soon!

Food cravings: Tudor's Biscuit World bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit. If I don't get one soon, I will probably cry.

Anything making you queasy or sick: I still get queasy at least a few times a day. But, it is mostly better.

Sex of the baby: We don't know yet!

Labor Signs: None. 

Symptoms: Growing belly, nauseousness.

Belly Button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Very happy!

Looking forward to: Finding out the sex, my belly getting bigger, registering, the baby shower! Lots to look forward to!

13 Weeks

How far along? 13 Weeks

Total weight gain: I am now down 5lbs. I am started to get a belly though, so I am shocked I lost weight.

Maternity clothes? I am now wearing maternity pants. Shirts are okay, but all my pants are too tight.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: I am sleeping a little better lately. 

Best moment this week: I got to see my sweet baby and hear its little heartbeat! It was amazing.

Miss Anything? No, not so far!

Movement: It is still too early, but hopefully in the next few weeks.

Food cravings: I really haven't been craving anything lately. I have trouble finding things to eat, but that is getting better, too.

Anything making you queasy or sick: I am having a hard time finding things to eat, but as far as feeling really sick, that seems to be waning.

Gender: We don't know yet!

Labor Signs: None. 

Symptoms: Fatigue, light nauseousness, bloat.

Belly Button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Happy, happy, happy! (Duck Dynasty reference, lol)

Looking forward to: I am finally feeling comfortable enough to start researching baby stuff! We will probably start a registry soon. I don't go back to the doctor until January 4th. And my anatomy scan is January 23rd.

12 Weeks!

How far along? 12 Weeks

Total weight gain: At my last appointment I gained 3 lbs. I hope I haven't gained much  more than that.

Maternity clothes? I gave in and bought some pants. The jeans are heavenly!

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep: Not so good. I usually wake up around 6 and have trouble falling back to sleep.

Best moment this week: Not feeling as sick!

Miss Anything? No not at all!

Movement: Too early.

Food cravings:I have had Jason make me spaghetti twice now. Other than that I just eat whatever I can stomach at the moment. That has been hard!

Anything making you queasy or sick: I feel queasy 24/7 especially when I think about food. I got to enjoy Thanksgiving dinner an extra time because I got sick afterwards.

Gender: We don't know yet!

Labor Signs: None. 

Symptoms: Nausea, fatigue, constipation, bloating.

 Belly Button in or out? In.

Wedding rings on or off? Still on.

Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty moody! Just ask Jason.

Looking forward to: My next appointment coming up on Tuesday!

Here is my picture for HDBD!

We have a HB!

A lot has happened since I last updated! I got to go in for my OB intake appointment. She said everything looked good, but she wanted to know why I hadn't had an ultrasound yet. I thought I was having one that day, but apparently the nurse and the receptionist got their wires crossed. The doctor decided to bring me in the next week for an ultrasound due to my previous loss. I was so excited and nervous. Our loss milestone was marked as 8 weeks 3 days even though we didn't find out until 12 weeks. So we would be passed that point, but now I know that hearing the HB is not a guarantee. We heard it last time and still lost our sweet pea. Hopefully this time is different! Anyway, here is a picture of our little one at 9 weeks 1 day!

I go back on December 4th for our next ultrasound and OB appointment! Fingers crossed everything still looks good!

Pregnant After a Loss

I knew that getting pregnant after a loss would be terrifying. I just didn't realize how scary, stressful, and heartbreaking it would be. Jason or I neither one can seem to let go and actually be excited. I try to remind myself that this is a new pregnancy and a new day. Many times I think about how far along I should be with the baby we lost. At this point we would know the sex of the baby. It would be time for baby showers and finishing the nursery.

Earlier this week I had a few bad days. I realized that when I made my appointment for next week that the receptionist didn't say anything about an ultrasound. I called the office and sure enough, I wasn't put down for an u/s, just an OB take-in appointment. She also said that they probably won't be able to get me into u/s that day, but maybe the next week. That just broke my heart. At the appointment next Friday I will be 8 weeks 3 days, the approximate day our baby quit growing last time. After I got off the phone I had a little meltdown. Then of course I talked myself into thinking something was wrong now.

We decided to go ahead and tell our parents that we are expecting again. It took a lot of convincing, but I knew that if something were to happen I would want their support. Here is to hoping the next week flies by and I have a great first appointment, u/s or not!

This is a shock.

Today I am 9DPO. That means according to the basal body temperature I record every morning I ovulated 9 days ago. For some reason when I woke up this morning I had the urge to test. I just used one of the cheapie Wondfos that come with the OPKs. I waited five minutes and checked... I thought there was a faint line, but when I asked Jason he said he couldn't see anything.

I still felt like there was a line there, so when I went to the store this afternoon I picked up a First Response Early Response test. They are supposed to detect HCG levels 6 days before your missed period. I was going to wait till tomorrow morning to take a test so I could use first morning urine that is stronger, but I just couldn't wait. Sure enough 3 minutes later there were two lines! A positive test...

That is a pretty strong line for only 9DPO! I texted Jason at work and told him to call me. There was no way I could wait till he got home tonight to tell him. I also called the doctor right away because of the Thrombophilia and my recent loss. I go see the nurse on Thursday at 3!

We are cautiously optimistic and happy. I am definitely nervous, but I know this will be my take home baby! <3

In the meantime...

While we get back on the TTC journey, I decided to take on a project. My BIL was about to throw away an old dresser with beautiful lines. There was nothing wrong with it except the top drawer is missing the guide. Here is the subject of the project!

 

My first step was to pick out a bright paint color. Yellow was the first color to pop into my head, and I just ran with it.

Sherwin Williams decisive yellow it is! I had some left over primer from painting in our house. So I made a trip to the store for sandpaper and wood filler. I first sanded the piece down to do away with some rough edges and even everything out. Plus it roughed the wood up to better accept the primer. I used the wood filler to take care of the holes from the old hardware. I knew I wanted to do some fun modern knobs, so the old ones were taken off and the holes filled in.

I wasn't completely concerned with how well the primer covered the dresser. I just wanted to make sure the major parts were taken care of and I had a mostly clean slate for the yellow. I primed the dresser on Thursday and allowed it to dry overnight. I *almost* fell in love with the grey enough to go with a shade of grey, but in the end yellow won.

The next two pictures of the yellow were taken outside in direct sunlight right after painting. They make the color look much lighter than it really is! 

 

I did this project partially on my drive way and partially in our outbuilding. After two coats of paint on Friday (one early morning and one early afternoon), I had to wait to bring it inside! Late Friday evening I couldn't handle it anymore so I carried it in to the spare bedroom.

 Hi kitty!

After that the hunt was on for knobs. I knew Antropologie had gorgeous ones, but they weren't really in my price range for this project. I went back and forth between black or grey knobs, but in the end I didn't want anything that would take away from the bright yellow. Glass or clear knobs seemed to be the obvious choice! After a lot of hunting I found these beauties on Amazon.

At $3.00 I thought they were a steal! I talked Jason into helping me add them to the dresser today and here is the finished product.

Here is the condensed run down!

1. Sand dresser down. Wipe off to remove dust and dirt.
2. Fill in any holes or abnormalities in the wood.
3. Prime. And let dry.
4. Paint one coat. Let dry.
5. Paint coat two. Let dry.
6. Attach new hardware.
7. Tada!

This was a cheap project as well! The dresser was given to my by my brother in law. He was going to throw it out anyway. I paid $19 for the paint from Sherwin Williams. And I paid $18 for the knobs from Amazon. That's it!

These steps obviously worked for this type of wood, but it may not work for everything. I am so proud of this little project. Hopefully I can find something else to throw myself into soon!